National Infertility Awareness

Last week was National Infertility Awareness week. I didn't even know that was a thing until recently. As I've said before, most days don't bother me. I check my temperature or remind Miles about our, ahem, scheduled play date, but I don't think about my fertility... or lack thereof.

And then there are the hard days. Days where I can't be social with other pregnant women and the big question mark in my life is in the back of every thought.

Today, I'm in between those days which is probably why I can blog about it.

 I'm feeling honest. Honestly, I'm tired of trying and I'm tried of waiting. 5 rounds of fertility medication have not produced results, but I have endured five months of hot flashes, dry skin, rashes, sleepless nights, mood swings, and bloating.

 In May, I will see a new doctor- a fertility specialist who can do way more- for more testing and medication. I've heard that he's not too expensive, that he tries to get results without breaking the bank, but I'm still expecting some fairly large bills coming my way. My insurance will pay for things related to my health [like pre-cancerous cysts, endometriosis], but not things that are considered fertility-related. I'm anxious to find out the treatment plans.

Anyway, if you know anyone who is  suffering  dealing with infertility, you might read this publication by RESOLVE. The first time I read it, I cried the entire way through. It was a nice reminder that I am not alone. So many truths.

Discombobulated

Discombobulated. That's how I'm feeling right now. Over the past two weeks, Miles and I found a new house, turned in our rental notice, signed a lease, moved out of one house, and move into the new one. It's been a whirlwind of a month. My kitchen and bedroom are the only rooms unpacked. I can't find my pasta strainer, my cats freak out whenever someone walks up our creaky stairs, and for the life of me, I cannot find a light switch when I need one. Oh, the joys of moving. Thankfully, this will be our final move here in Knoxville. The next time we sign a lease we will be in Maine! Or Michigan! Or Oregon, Washington, Denmark, Arizona... or Minnesota! (Ha- seriously, we could be anywhere.) But for now, we live in this little house that feels like a mansion in the middle of Old North Knox.

Spring in my Step

Skirt: Banana Republic // Sweater: Belk (maybe?) // Blouse: Land's End // Heels: Clarks

Today I wore heels for the first time since boot season started and it's all everyone talked about. It's funny how a little pair of heels can get so much attention! However, while I was prancing around the building today, I decided that this was the first and last time I'll wear heels this spring. With 33 school days left in the year, I just don't have the time or energy to wear heels. I need comfort! I need speed! I just can't do that in heels this late in the year. So, goodbye heels. I'll see you next school year.

Four Things

1. I've cut my fingers enough times on my hand held zoodle maker... It's time to invest in something that won't leave me bleeding! The Paderno Spiralizer looks perfect. Do you have a zoodle maker you prefer?

2. I'm not sure if it's the L.L. Bean girl in me or the fact that I've been in the south too long, but I need a hat just like this. Monogrammed and faded navy? It goes straight to my heart. I'll be hitting up Etsy to buy this hat soon unless I can find someone with a monogram machine...

3. Last weekend I spent part Miles' REI dividend on the black pair of Chaco Dorra sandals. I'm going back this weekend to buy them in brown leather. Full post coming about them soon (just know they are the best sandals I've found in my entire life).

4. I have three day weekend (do other parts of the country let out for Easter or is it a Southern thing?), so I'm finally going to dive into Rain Reign by my favorite Ann M. Martin. It recently was awarded the NCTE Charlotte Huck Award for Outstanding Fiction for Children along with being named an ALA Notable Book (among other recognitions). I'm betting it will be wonderful; I'll give you all he full scoop next week! Any other YA or Ann M. Martin lovers out there?